Queen Of Bee

i posted daily during my teacher training course. from day 1 till the end of the course. after that i only posted randomly. i posted daily because i want to remember what i have done during that period. i said i would write more about ttc. here it goes... i was informed about this course last year in october. it was during our private class that the teacher informed us about this course with lance schuler from inspya yoga . my sisters attended his workshop before and they liked his teaching. we didnt have much time to think about this because we had to register by the next day in order to catch the early bird package rate. it was quite costly, so decision has to be made very carefully. my only concern was, would i be able to take 20 days off to attend this course? it would be an intensive course. i had to decide fast. it was sunday when we were informed about the course. the next day, i informed my boss about my plan to take 20 days off for the course. she asked a few questions : q :...

my ttc final was on 15 april . this morning was my first class, teaching the adult. i only started preparing this morning. i know it's not good. i will REPENT!!! i promise. but this morning was not bad. i did my favourite poses with them. as i was the replacement teacher, i didnt do any OUT OF THE WORLD poses. just simple poses, but emphasizing alot on the breathing. inhale... exhale... i hope they liked the class. do i prefer kids or adult class? adult : they listen and follow your instruction. kids : they will (TRY!) to listen to you while doing something else. adult : they only practise, hardly any two way communication. only i talk. they dont talk. kids : they will TALK the minute they step into the class. i guess both are fine... Loka-Samasta-Sukhino-Bhavantu (may all beings attain happiness & freedom)

Laughter is the most healthful exertion. ~Christoph Wilhelm Hufeland~

it's funny what a hug can do, for each that you give out, you receive one in return.

#1 : my dessert hate it when i have sore throat. hate it more when i cough. sigh... both come together, double bonus!

when i'm free, i do this... #1 : i'm vain... hahaha #2 : of coffee & tea #3 : alcohol & soup

# the invitation? (dream on....) it's the " The Royal Wedding " day today. news coverage are HUGE on the couple, William & Kate. i will watch the fairy tale wedding of the year from office. unlike aunty J, she took a day off today just for this. haha! #2 : my lunch spot today #3 : eyes on the news

latest song playing again and again and again... Macy Gray : Beauty in the world I know you're fed up Like a lead up for us All they talk about is What is going down? Whats been messed up for us? When I look around I see blue skies I see butterflies for us Listen to the sound and lose it Its sweet music and dance with me There is beauty in the world So much beauty in the world Always beauty in the world So much beauty in the world Shake your booty boys and girls for the beauty in the world Pick your diamond pick your pearl there is beauty in the world All together now We need more lovin We need more money, they say Change is gonna come Like the weather They say forever They say When they are in between Notice the blue skies Notice the butterflies Notice me Stop and smell the flowers And lose it the sweet music and dance with me There is beauty in the world So much beauty in the world Always beauty in the world There is beauty in the world Shake your booty boys and girls for the bea...

some photos from ttc... #1 : sticker to differentiate my manual #2 : my name in sanskrit #3 : decoration for final assessment #4 : my notes which i put in front of my mat during final assessment. #5 : my final assessment that i submitted #6 : triple yoga?

it has been a week. i'm back to work. doing the same old reporting. working the same old files. what's new? more work. why? because i'm the babysitter now. the "young" one resigned. the "old" one has to take care while waiting for the "new" one to come in. not complaining after i was allowed to take 20 days off from work for my yoga course. it's payback time :) what drastic changes in me? i could feel my arms muscles. firmer. haha. my jeans not so tight. and i ate less. on tuesday, went out for lunch. had indonesian food. i guess it was too much for me after 4 weeks of moderate eating. the food was not digested until late evening. just ate a bit of dinner. told mum to pack less for my lunch box. my internal alarm wake me up at 5am. eyes will open around that time, sometimes even earlier. i have decided to make myself to get out of the bed. just to meditate or practise asana. but i took 3 days off for my "girl's holiday". this ...

what is normal now? going to work? hahaha. after 4 weeks, didnt really look forward to go back to work. still miss the workless days. although it was stressful when it was assessment time, being in a group, learning and sharing together was really fun. when can i have back the 4 weeks that had just passed in a blink?

hahaha... i am super happy!! my last day of ttc. this morning 108 suryanamaskar was fantastic!!! awesome!!! i was very worried that i might not be able to complete the cycle. last round 54 set almost died. haha. (no kua cheong, ok). this morning, lance and phil led the class. their breaths lead the whole group. we all did it together in unison. on the last set, tears dropped. happiness. and after class, we went straight to the pool for a dip. to cool us down and also to relax our muscles. and we did our philosophy test in the pool. what??? he wanted us to swim to the centre of the pool, grab the block to answer 1 question. once correct, then pass! waa.... cool. we fought to grab the block.. had a great laugh at the pool. those who didnt go to the pool were 'punished' in the classroom. they had to do suryanamaskar and answered 2 questions instead. fair.. during graduation, we sang gayatri mantra together. suddenly i was choked with tears. i dont know why. but i just cried half w...

this morning pranayama assessment was smooth. Happy that we went through. Just to refresh back what we have learnt. Good way to force us to remember all the info. Or else, everything will be gone when they are gone. Just hope that we can teach more than 25% of what we have learnt so far. Haha. Because phil said usually people can only take 25% of information during one workshop. Asana this morning was fun. The intention was bring out the inner child in you. We have a problem applying our intention into our sequence. Hence, phil created one for this morning asana so that we can understand more. First time i tried monkey bar. Only managed to swing abit, then i fall off. Needed alot of strength wei. Phil forced me to go up again. He did it with me together. But of course, some one was holding me from the bottom so that i wont fall off so fast. Now... Hand pain lor. Hahaha. Lousy me. Tomorrow is our last day of ttc. It was like last week we just started the course. 108 sun salutions will b...

i think my energy level was at the lowest level today. after the final assesment, energy all gone. hahaha. this morning, we were made to sit in hanumasana for 30min. we were allowed to use bolster, blocks, whatever we wanted in order to stay in the posture. 15min for each side. i just closed my eyes. we were not allowed to move the legs at all. only yes for upper body. i just stayed put. and luckily phil played a mantra song, and that eased me a lot. survived the half an hour spilt with a bit of numbness. during asana, we were asked to self practise. lance and phil adjusted our postures accordingly. we were left in our own world to do whatever we wanted. i did 27 set of suryanamaskar, a quarter of 108, which we will all do together this friday. almost dozed off during philosophy. tired.. really tired. had to stand up in order to keep myself awake. afternoon was group a assessment time. we practised along, and i had expected a tougher sequence from them. but it was ok. all of them did a...

we did our sanskrit test this morning. happy that i managed to answer 12 correctly out of 14. i passed the test. phew. 2 failed. phil spoke to them privately on this matter. then we continued with our pranayama. and he told us we had to sit in hanumasana tomorrow morning for 15min each side during meditation. hai.... so early in the morning sit spilt... how to kangkang lah??? i think i need lots of bolster to support my un-split legs. hahahaha. today's asana was partner yoga. we had some fun in the class. kind of destress us a bit too. everyone was too engrossed, trying to memorize all the sequence for the final. we only got to know that group b would be the first group to be accessed. i was HAPPY! very happy because i could get over it by today! and no need to worry about it anymore. during philosophy, phil forced us to put away all our notes for the final and just concentrate on his class. fair.... whatever that we wanted to do should be in our head already. my group assessment w...

i was too tired to write. although we had a day off on sunday, but it was spent digging information and mapped out a 20min sequence for the final. would this posture jived with the theme? what about the flow? i picked the abominal, lower back and hip sequence. not my favourite but i still had to do it. at least i was the second person in our group. so, it was fine with me. maybe the universe wanted me to strengthen my "weakness". we regrouped to discuss and reaffirm everything and hoped for the best. yesterday morning , we had blind-fold asana. interesting!! as we didnt bring any blind-fold, we used the strap/belt and wrapped it around our eyes. we had to feel the movement of the posture. verbal instruction given by lance, and slowly we moved one posture to another. our sanskrit was not that good, but some of us were bad until they didnt know what lance was talking about. that has created a "last minute sanskrit exam" on day 20 (the next day), during pranayama sessi...

3 weeks down! 1 more to go! it has been a very tiring week for all of us. we started teaching in our group since last friday. though it was just for 15min, it was still hardwork for most of us who have no experience in teaching. i lost my "touch" after a few years break. teaching kids is totally different with adult. have to take into consideration of many things. and i still feel nervous whenever i stepped in front of the mat. i thought i would be calmer, but i was wrong. i wanted to be the best, and yet it didnt happen, especially today. my inhalation was not very "correct". should inhaled, but i exhaled. and i only noticed when phil pointed it out. damn malu lor!! hai... 2 practical assessment done. we will have our final next week. tue-thu afternoon for 3 groups. we will not know which group will go first on tuesday. lance and phil will only take the draw on tuesday morning. so, all groups have to be ready by tuesday. feeling the pressure as i want to do my best...

interesting day as we had our 15min of practical teaching in the afternoon. yesterday's 5min sequence was nerve wrecking. today, we were more 'calm' as we had time to prepare for our asanas earlier. tomorrow another 15min sequence. we wont be doing the same sequence though. today, mine was backbend and twist. overall comment was ok. just that he wanted me to improvise my explanation when coming out from the pose. tomorrow is chest, shoulder and upper body... and it's saturday already. end of week 3. next week is our final assessment... woooo... 

we didnt do much asana today. lance only explained how to start a beginner class, what we should take note of and so on. all of us were lying on our back while listening to him. most of fell asleep in between. why? because the night before, all of us did revision till late night because we had to prepare for 3 different classes in the next few days. this afternoon. we had a taste of teaching in front of the class. we were divided into 2 groups. we were just asked to start a class. no particular poses. we just needed to continue from the person before us. wah.. i was so nervous. i did suryanamaskar. i guess i was too nervous until my breathing was out of order. hahaha. after this session, i guess we felt better and more ready for tomorrow.  

we learnt how to explain abdominal and thorasic breathing during pranayama. phil taught us from the start, which is the best way for us to explain to our student. worked in partners so that we got the chance to demonstrate to 'student' and vice versa. this morning asana was a suprised for group c. they were supposed to be adjusting, but lance and phil last minute decided that the group should teach instead. 6 of them were given 7minutes for their sequence. nerve wrecking if it was me. but they did a fantastic job. tomorrow onwards, all of us will have a chance to teach in front the group, in order to get ourselves ready for the final assessment next week. we have picked from the hat, what sequence we will do for the finals. i got the abdominal, lower back and hips. *cry* omg.. my weakest point.. hai.. at least we have the time to prepare.. have to start revising for finals...